You wake up in the morning. You feel this urge, prompting you, no, forcing you to shut the sink close. The water is dripping from its nozzle, driving you mad. You do so once. Twice. You end up breaking that sink. This isn't a mere pointless story, but the log of my events. I've broken my sink more than 3 times, but that ain't the half of the cake. Many fell victims to my preying hands. Sinks, cups, none were spared.
In an endless pursuit of madness and violence, many inanimate objects have come to learn of my unforgiving touch.
This finding led me to come to a newer conclusion. No longer will Judaism, the orthodox religion that shuns away sentiments of cardinal pride and perceived sins, will trap me in with the demon. I break loose; I defy that which I feared. The sin.
By allowing myself to be angry at the cause of distress, I made space for decisiveness to be bred.
A circumstantial factor, internally exacerbated by an external religious factor, was fear.
It could be said the OCD is a pushover, nosy, telemarketing agent. It may seem as though it respects consent, but as soon as a bit of clearance for doubt is made the agent will hop over their chair and make you regret even trying to avoid buying their newest snake oil product.
You have to make a clear, courageous stand against OCD. Hesitation is its source of weaponry, and decisiveness is its enemy.
2. Perceived Social Prophets: Your mother's response to your admission of impulsive thought about hurting someone, by acting as if it is anything but an impulsive thought. "Oh, hurting people is wrong". Breaking your last shred of confidence you thought you had built up inside, only to be bullied into submission to your OCD.
3. Sensory Overload: When your mind has to battle many sources of input, such as the sight of a dirty kitchen, the sound of trucks overwhelming you, the smell of your perfume, and your internal thoughts of different, diverse topics like the workplace or your social feuds. This culmination of numerous sources decrease one's natural ability to think straight. In a similar fashion to facing multiple enemy fronts in the battlefield, it is hard to act against OCD when you have a battalion of other concerns joining it.
For your religion's ocd, an external voice, a strong and persistent one, that serves to balance the voice of the external, and thus, internal voice of religious judgment. Balance off your priest by surrounding yourself with someone in the middle, aware of your religious reality, and yet resistant to dogma-induced suffering.
2. Maybe your mom is a bad source of input. It's harder to win against both internal and external sources of plight with your own mere partially flawed internal voice. Pick someone else to surround yourself with.
Quanity and intensity make up the equation. Make sure the percentage of the healthier people in your life is far greater in your day to day experiences than the ones that can't seem to shut their trap.
3. In the case of sensory overload, it could be challenging. The reason is you depend on your circumstances.
In an endless pursuit of madness and violence, many inanimate objects have come to learn of my unforgiving touch.
The Breaking Point
I once stood before a hose, its nozzle not tightly closed. I felt this enraging sensation, I broke loose. I defied the beast, and got so mad I chose, and decisively so, to not close the damn thing. Matter in fact, I eschewed from spray pattern. That day signified something to me, a newer notion of the nature of OCD.OCD Fears Anger
Sounds funny, but true. On the day I broke my third sink, trying to fix that which didn't need fixing, an act of wrath sort of squeezed the OCD away, even if only in part. I then felt that OCD is a systematic predisposition oriented towards fear and hesitation. The natural opposites of fear and doubt are anger and impulsiveness.This finding led me to come to a newer conclusion. No longer will Judaism, the orthodox religion that shuns away sentiments of cardinal pride and perceived sins, will trap me in with the demon. I break loose; I defy that which I feared. The sin.
By allowing myself to be angry at the cause of distress, I made space for decisiveness to be bred.
A circumstantial factor, internally exacerbated by an external religious factor, was fear.
It could be said the OCD is a pushover, nosy, telemarketing agent. It may seem as though it respects consent, but as soon as a bit of clearance for doubt is made the agent will hop over their chair and make you regret even trying to avoid buying their newest snake oil product.
You have to make a clear, courageous stand against OCD. Hesitation is its source of weaponry, and decisiveness is its enemy.
Potential OCD Allies
1. Religion: Your voice of spiritual authority claims it is the devil's doing. Hesitate against pride, and let OCD triumph. Hesitate against lust, do doubt your unrightous act and let OCD prevail. The list is endless.2. Perceived Social Prophets: Your mother's response to your admission of impulsive thought about hurting someone, by acting as if it is anything but an impulsive thought. "Oh, hurting people is wrong". Breaking your last shred of confidence you thought you had built up inside, only to be bullied into submission to your OCD.
3. Sensory Overload: When your mind has to battle many sources of input, such as the sight of a dirty kitchen, the sound of trucks overwhelming you, the smell of your perfume, and your internal thoughts of different, diverse topics like the workplace or your social feuds. This culmination of numerous sources decrease one's natural ability to think straight. In a similar fashion to facing multiple enemy fronts in the battlefield, it is hard to act against OCD when you have a battalion of other concerns joining it.
Potential Solutions
1. In truthfulness, for each variation of OCD's manifestation, a slightly tweaked and different solution could be proper.For your religion's ocd, an external voice, a strong and persistent one, that serves to balance the voice of the external, and thus, internal voice of religious judgment. Balance off your priest by surrounding yourself with someone in the middle, aware of your religious reality, and yet resistant to dogma-induced suffering.
2. Maybe your mom is a bad source of input. It's harder to win against both internal and external sources of plight with your own mere partially flawed internal voice. Pick someone else to surround yourself with.
Quanity and intensity make up the equation. Make sure the percentage of the healthier people in your life is far greater in your day to day experiences than the ones that can't seem to shut their trap.
3. In the case of sensory overload, it could be challenging. The reason is you depend on your circumstances.
a. If you can switch to a different job - Change the portion of sensory overload in your life. If you work an 8 hours per day job, it is important to make sure those 8 hours are spent in a healthier environment. A person dealing with inner demons could use a different job. A social job, to talk to people with external voices. Perhaps a relaxing, green environment in the woods, if possible. It varies wildly, but one thing is certain - Routine makes a tremendous amount of the difference. A one hour experience per day, for a year, will most likely produce a much bigger difference than a consecutive 20 hours experience that only happens once a month.
Make sure to adapt in that environment, to balance your state of mind, with either less sensory input, in quiet workplace, for example, or with a different type, like an emotional stimuli environment, like talking to annoying people.
b. If you can't switch to a different job -
That could lead to an entire different thread / article.
Honestly, first thing I'd suggest is a pair of earphones. Music, or perhaps the opposite, remove your earbuds and tune in the painfully loud environment.
A million different solutions. Too hard for me to try to wrote all of those down.
Risk at your discretion:
You can try to get yourself into some trouble. Sometimes people seem to buy into the bad of the world amazingly faster than the good. Is it man's nature to lean towards evil? In either way, humans seem to believe in that.'
So you can try to get into an argument with an employee, stand up to your boss, or even get into smaller, manageable problems.
The thing about external problems is that external forces pull you into that sphere.
Good luck buckaroos!
